Nov 2 was my first Taxol

Nov 2 - I met with my NP Onco and I was told im going to get bone pain on Sat on top of my Neulesta bone pain.  I also inquired about surgery on when will it be.  Then off I go to get infuse, so I was infused with Taxol.  Nurse Arturo was great.  I didn't get any allergic reaction. 

Nov 3 - I was fine.  Energy is good.

Nov 4 - Day time was fine just regular bone pain from Neulesta.  Then night fall came and my legs started hurting so bad.  It felt like toothache on my legs.  From my knees to ankles, it hurts so bad I couldn't sleep and it was pulsing also.  I took Codon to relieve the pain, but i guess it took an hour to take effect.  It just made me feel sleepy after an hour but it still hurts.

Nov 5-8 - Pain Days - It hurts so bad today.  I tried taking  5mg THC gummies to relieve the pain.  It did work but my tummy felt off from it.  I guess too much thc i can't tolerate.  Next time try a blend of cbd and thc.  I take thc gummies for day time just staying home.  Then at night i take Codon to make sleep.  As days passes by the pain is not as bad as on Sat night, it is getting lesser pain.

Nov 9 - No more pain. Yay pain is gone.

Nov 10 - I got a massage, I needed it so bad.

Taxol pain sucks, I gotta find a good blend of cbd/thc for pain pronto.

Constipation begone

I took colace last night work.  I wasn't as constipated.  Waiting to be injected of Neulesta tonight.  Bone pain here we come... I took Claritin this morning to lessen the pain.

4th AC Done

I brought some ice flavored watermelon because I can't stomach regular ice chips from the ice machine.  It tasted like anti-bacterial soap and it made me nauseated.  Prior the infusion my husband asked the NP oncologist about adding carbo platin.  After some back and fort my husband got the answer he was looking for to ease his mind about the plan my Oncologist have for my treatments.
I was also told to take colace tonight because when they asked me about constipation.  I said it's like giving birth to poop. 

Day 4 Post 2nd AC Chemo

I woke up with a little pain on my back and no nausea.  So that was a plus.  I have been shedding and my scalp is hurting near my neck.  Today is going to be a good day.  I told my son we are going to go to the zoo.  Then it's my time to shower.  I locked the bedroom door so that I could mourn my hair by myself if it's coming off in chunks.  Unfortunately, my husband had a problem with me locking the door, he said I might fall down.  Sometimes I just want to keep this hair problem all to myself.  It's a fucking a hair it will grow back.  But I was a mess.  We argued about the locked door.  Even though i know deep down it wasn't about the locked door, I just wanted to lashed out someone.  I was glad I drove my mom today to my uncle's house or I would've lashed at her too.  I was mad I have Cancer, that I'm going thru chemo and I hated the side effects.  Well, the Cancer got the best out of me today.  These chunks of hair coming out after showering is making me emotional.  Fuck it's hair it's going to grow back.  I felt terrible to the way I acted towards my husband today.  I hate being so emotional like this. 

Day 3 Post 2nd AC Chemo

My body ached but not as bad yesterday.  My scalp hurts or my skull hurts.  I still feel a bit nausea.  I have this alcohol taste on my tongue.  Im laying down on the bed all day except when my husband asked me to walk around the neighborhood before he goes to work and when i picked up my son from school.  Today i was craving tomatoes and i made myself some banana, strawberry, mango, hemp milk shake.

Day 4 Post Chemo

I woke up with a neckache this morning.  I took 1 anti nausea meds for the last time this week.  Throughout the day my bone pain subsided.  Thank goodness.  I drove my mom to the bank, grocery, and farmer's market.  Then in the afternoon, I took another claritin just in case.  Now that I was pain free.  I took a peek at my biopsy site and see and if the blood got worse.  It looks the same as yesterday but I did iced it anyways for 15-20mins.

Day 3 Post Chemo

I woke up with back pain.  Bone pain thru out my back, tail bone and up to my neck.  I took my anti nausea meds then headed down to eat breakfast.  I went for a walk with my hubby then headed to bed and lay down.  My hubby told me to take Advil.  So then I rested and fell asleep for 2 hours.  My lump site became a bit sore today.  I checked on my biopsy site and it bled for a bit but it wasn't fresh.  I saw not so fresh blood.  I think maybe it was from Advil.  The instructions were not to take advil for 3 days after biopsy.  So i had conflicting instructions from oncologist which is take Advil for pain.  It didn't occur to me that it would make the biopsy site bleed a bit.  I thought i was passed that.

Day 1 Post Chemo

I woke up at 5am with a headache.  It felt like i went to a light beer party.  I have a hangover and very nauseated.  So i took my nausea med at 6am.  It took 3 hrs to get my nausea down but still manageable hangover.
At 10:40am while laying down on the bed, I felt a bubbly cool swishing feeling on my main lump site.  It's like when you're trying to clean your body after being sandy on the beach.
At 2:45PM I Took Claritin to prepare my bones for less bone pain from the Neulesta.  I also took my second nausea pill.
I was so tired at 7pm so I took a nap and hubby woke me up at 9pm for my Neulesta shot.

Nuelesta shot from 9PM to 10PM.  1 hour done and then my hubby took off my on board neulesta.  I couldn't sleep yet so i just entertained myself by watching TV.  Then at 11:40pm I felt that swishing action again.  I took my last Nausea pill for the night and CBD oil .5 grain.  Then i went night night.

Irritated day before Chemo

I had to take out my son's contact lens last night. I didn't sleep until 11PM.  Both my mom and my husband are worried that i wasn't getting enough sleep.  The other night i woke up early at 3AM, i went onto my laptop until i could fall back to sleep at 5AM.  I went back to sleep, then at 7am I woke up because my son wanted to wake up.  This morning my alarm went off at 5AM.  I forgot to turn it off. Then my mom came down to tell me to get more sleep.  She went on and on about I needed to rest.  In her caring way she told me maybe i shouldn't be on chemo if i can't handle it and can't rest.  I got irritated and told her to leave me alone.  I know she means well but my alarm went off.  I didn't like what I said because she's worried about me. Now i feel horrible.