onco yearly appnt

Everything is fine ....chit chat about stuff... then theres this raised skin near my flap.  The np didnt seem concerned, she said it's probably nothing but she uttered the word biopsy.... anxiety raised the roof... ah in my head I didnt want to do it.  I was freaking out inside my head.  So then she left us to find the other dr for 2nd opinion. I was left with my husband I know he would want to know.  So I gather myself and said let's do this. He came in and said I'm not concerned but we have to document it.  I was giving some excuses why it did what it did to my flap.  Like I was heavy lifting too much and probably my muscle trying to push it up.  Then they all looked like I was talking like it doesn't make sense scientifically.  He said, well it's not nothing, it is something.  So in my head is scrambling with anxiety "not again"... The onco asked the NP what do you want to do and when do you want to see her back? The NP replied lets do a biopsy and see her in 6 months.  I know if we don't do this this would just haunt her for 6 months until we see her.  The onco left so  the NP is very comforting, she said she will call me as soon as the results comes out.  I page them right now...just go up and check in."  So I and my husband go to 3rd floor...It would take 30mins for them to come to this building.... so I waited for an hour again and I told my husband to pick up my son from school and just come back and get me.  After 1hr, the I got called in they're ready for me.  I walked into the halls and into the room and the lady was really assuring like it doesn't hurt or it wouldn't hurt.  She did about 2 pokes then another dr came in and wanted to get sample from me too.  So that's another 2 pokes or 3.  They put it in the slides to go look into the microscope and they seemed optimistic like it's not cancer.  So I'm relieved.  Now Im glad that the NP did send me to do the biopsy, so I wouldn't worry as much. SO it didn't hurt so that was good.  My flap was just bruised.  After it's done I called my husband that im ready to go back home.  He picked me up and went to the fish taco place and eat because we are both starving...

Now the next few days were not easy... Still waiting for results and even though they told me it's not cancer I'm still worried because it's not on the paper...  It feels like it's hard to move on and do stuff when there is this results that im waiting.  I kept myself busy but at night.  that's when the worry comes in..